Singleness…. one, alone, separate, individual,
By NO means is this an easy thing to walk in. This was made even more apparent to me this afternoon while having a conversation with my aunt, affectionately known as Aunt Sugar. You see Aunt Sugar is somewhat recently separated began telling me about the disillusion of her marriage. She began telling how she had been unhappy for many years, but chose to stay married because of her son’s love for his father. I must admit I have never been a fan of his and thought for many years that my Aunt could do so much better.
Well, in this conversation today she began to tell me that after three months of dating, and many burdens she felt were placed on her within the family she asked him to marry her. I was like WOW, what? ok… Already starting this thing out wrong God says, “A man who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD”. (Pr 18:22) In this conversation she also stated that he lived with his mother and could not really support himself, her being a single mother at the time of this ‘union’ her child did not bond with this man. This conversation left me asking ‘what is wrong with us that we cannot stand to be single for a season?’
In singleness we are suppose to be able to do great things for the Kingdom of God. However so many of want to united with someone else that we forgo out passions and our gifts in one way or another to be joined with someone who may or may not have the same drive, goals, passions, and desires for the Kingdom as us. I suppose essentially we are telling God in our own way He doesn’t know what He’s doing. How is it a fix to leave some temporary issues for life changing one, when God has a way out?
I went to church tonight and God was talking directly to me not only tonight, all week really, but tonight really brought it home for me. Text was Matthew 17:14-20: 14 -16At the bottom of the mountain, they were met by a crowd of waiting people. As they approached, a man came out of the crowd and fell to his knees begging, "Master, have mercy on my son. He goes out of his mind and suffers terribly, falling into seizures. Frequently he is pitched into the fire, other times into the river. I brought him to your disciples, but they could do nothing for him." 17 -18Jesus said, "What a generation! No sense of God! No focus to your lives! How many times do I have to go over these things? How much longer do I have to put up with this? Bring the boy here." He ordered the afflicting demon out—and it was out, gone. From that moment on the boy was well. 19When the disciples had Jesus off to themselves, they asked, "Why couldn't we throw it out?" 20"Because you're not yet taking God seriously," said Jesus. "The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy seed, say, you would tell this mountain, 'Move!' and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn't be able to tackle." (Msg) It was the first part of verse 20 that made me say ouch. Being so caught up in my selfish desires wanting to be united wanting to have someone to take this journey with was fine and good until I wanted it done in my time frame and in the way I thought it should be done that God said to me ‘Chavela, you are not taking me serious and its getting old’… Really not wanting to be outside of the will of God and on the other hand not wanting to walk TOTALLY in His will either has brought me to this place where I all I want to do is lay in His lap and let Him love me cause let’s face it I have sucked at loving myself fully.
In talking to my Aunt I have learned this Not to the my flesh and the thing I see in this physical world cloud my judgment of what God has ordained in the spiritual for me and my life and all those attached to me.
It is my prayer that whoever reads what I write and my thoughts as I go through this journey will take God seriously and hear Him say, “Well done, my child”
In Him Alone,
Chavela (Movement) Garrett
By NO means is this an easy thing to walk in. This was made even more apparent to me this afternoon while having a conversation with my aunt, affectionately known as Aunt Sugar. You see Aunt Sugar is somewhat recently separated began telling me about the disillusion of her marriage. She began telling how she had been unhappy for many years, but chose to stay married because of her son’s love for his father. I must admit I have never been a fan of his and thought for many years that my Aunt could do so much better.
Well, in this conversation today she began to tell me that after three months of dating, and many burdens she felt were placed on her within the family she asked him to marry her. I was like WOW, what? ok… Already starting this thing out wrong God says, “A man who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the LORD”. (Pr 18:22) In this conversation she also stated that he lived with his mother and could not really support himself, her being a single mother at the time of this ‘union’ her child did not bond with this man. This conversation left me asking ‘what is wrong with us that we cannot stand to be single for a season?’
In singleness we are suppose to be able to do great things for the Kingdom of God. However so many of want to united with someone else that we forgo out passions and our gifts in one way or another to be joined with someone who may or may not have the same drive, goals, passions, and desires for the Kingdom as us. I suppose essentially we are telling God in our own way He doesn’t know what He’s doing. How is it a fix to leave some temporary issues for life changing one, when God has a way out?
I went to church tonight and God was talking directly to me not only tonight, all week really, but tonight really brought it home for me. Text was Matthew 17:14-20: 14 -16At the bottom of the mountain, they were met by a crowd of waiting people. As they approached, a man came out of the crowd and fell to his knees begging, "Master, have mercy on my son. He goes out of his mind and suffers terribly, falling into seizures. Frequently he is pitched into the fire, other times into the river. I brought him to your disciples, but they could do nothing for him." 17 -18Jesus said, "What a generation! No sense of God! No focus to your lives! How many times do I have to go over these things? How much longer do I have to put up with this? Bring the boy here." He ordered the afflicting demon out—and it was out, gone. From that moment on the boy was well. 19When the disciples had Jesus off to themselves, they asked, "Why couldn't we throw it out?" 20"Because you're not yet taking God seriously," said Jesus. "The simple truth is that if you had a mere kernel of faith, a poppy seed, say, you would tell this mountain, 'Move!' and it would move. There is nothing you wouldn't be able to tackle." (Msg) It was the first part of verse 20 that made me say ouch. Being so caught up in my selfish desires wanting to be united wanting to have someone to take this journey with was fine and good until I wanted it done in my time frame and in the way I thought it should be done that God said to me ‘Chavela, you are not taking me serious and its getting old’… Really not wanting to be outside of the will of God and on the other hand not wanting to walk TOTALLY in His will either has brought me to this place where I all I want to do is lay in His lap and let Him love me cause let’s face it I have sucked at loving myself fully.
In talking to my Aunt I have learned this Not to the my flesh and the thing I see in this physical world cloud my judgment of what God has ordained in the spiritual for me and my life and all those attached to me.
It is my prayer that whoever reads what I write and my thoughts as I go through this journey will take God seriously and hear Him say, “Well done, my child”
In Him Alone,
Chavela (Movement) Garrett
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